Blogging HIATUS

I know its been soo long. Im sorry but i just cant keep up with my beloved blog. So much has happend these past few months and time as it is, is very difficult to find.

Im at this new job right now..and yes as a NURSE :) This is what eats up most or you can say ALL of my time. Add the fact that i work the graveyard shift so whatever time, i have i use to catch up on sleep.

I am still in a period of transition and it is a pretty great deal. So please bear with me.. I will be back. My blog is too precious to just be left hanging.

Bloggig HIATUS starts now. Til my next blog. ciao!

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OMG moment

Day Off. A rather typical day, with a not so typical occurence. And now, i write.

I made a promise to myself last month, I will finish the Eat, Pray, Love BOOK before I see the Eat, Pray, Love MOVIE. As for the realization of the promise, its still on the works. You see, thinking about the economy (lol) I opted to not purchase the book and just go to the bookstore and read. The reason exactly why i still havent finished it. So much for my cheapness.. The book has three parts (or books) divided into Liz G's travels to (1) Italy (2) India (3) Indonesia. Today, i say this proudly, i just finished book two.. Which was about INDIA, revolving around her journey towards God, inner peace and finding herself.

In the bookstore, it was nearly closing time, i finished in the nick of time. I decide to go to the restroom before heading out. After doing my business, i took out my phone and tweeted "just finished book2 of Eat,Pray, Love..il post an excerpt later. haha 2 down, 1 more to go". As my phone was doing its magic and sent it to twitter. Here it is..

A lady came in, wearing an orange robe, and glasses, with a notable red dot in her forehead. I was like "what in the.." of course, i was saying that to myself. Coincidence? because i was just reading about India and Ashrams a while back. Then she looked at me and said, "How are you young lady?" I smiled and said "Doing quite well actually, and you?", the reply was "Im glad that you are well, i am good as well"

I couldnt hold it anymore, i just had to tell her..

N: You know its kinda funny, because I was just reading Eat, Pray, Love, and about India, Ashrams and praying, then i saw you.. concidence,
G: no, i wouldnt say that. Nothing in this world is coincidence, everything happens for a reason, towards the direction you are set forth.

N: (dumfounded) You may be right, I am Nicole by the way.

G: Hello Nicole, I am Guru Ma, *handshake* I teach meditation (and stuff i cant remember)

N: Oh how nice to meet you.

G: I am happy you are doing well, and to learn that you are reading that sort of book, that is very nice.

All I could say after that are thank yous, I told her i have to get going, and bade her goodbye. She wished me all the best, and then i went out.

I hurried to the cafe where my brother was waiting. "You wont believe what just happened", Then i told him. He said "adik ka na naman, nasobrahan ka yata sa basa".

There's this electrifying feel, Im overwhelmed by this concidence.. oh wait, not concidence but by this unusual event. I dont know what this might mean. Should I go about and do what Liz G did? Go to an Ashram and discover me?

I dont know, I mean, yes there is still so much I need to know and experience. This is probably one of those things said in the book, that every spiritual journey has a beginning, a certain realization, a certain turning point. If this is my beginning, I just dont know. OMG!

August Rush

Whoa, a sudden urge to write.. this is an unusual occurence, haha.

Back in college i used to call this DJ on his show almost everyday but then i kinda stopped cause life became so busy. After months or years of nothing, I saw him on twitter, and voila!  after exchanging a few tweets, he told me to give him a call if i had the time and so i did.. how can i resist. lol So i called his show earlier, just to say hi and all.. then the next thing i know i was already on air, on philippine radio.. like wtf! good thing it was a morning show, so i dont think anybody i know was listening. hah! what a rush.. prolly that rush jumpstarted my blogging cells.. so yeah..

Nicole the Host.

Dating back from my very young self, I always had this liking (okay, passion) for HOSTING. I think it was inborn, hah! My mom would always tell me that even when i was little, i was already a talker. I remember her telling me about how i would always come up to them and say stories and stuff like that. I bet you they thought I was so friggin cute. haha! (ehem, until now ) So much for that.

Come highschool, thats when it came to me.. I WANT TO BE AN MTV VJ! yes, i thought i was crazy too. Come college though i was taking up Nursing, thats when i started putting myself out there, grabbing every chance i could get. Events, Seminars, Conferences, and even Pageants!

Everytime im out there, the feeling is surreal, it was like my own personal type of high, my sugar rush.
It doesnt matter how big or small the task is, as long as im there i feel the same kind of rush every time. Oh how i love the feeling. I even got an offer to host in an event in Shangri la this one time, but i had to decline it because.. it came up on an exam week. Talk about major bummer!

As much as I love hosting, there is this other part of me.. Nicole the Nurse.. and if anyone would make me choose between the two, the latter would still emerge on top. Sorry Hosting, you are a no. 2. 

They both make me happy, and when the time comes i still hope that i can live up to my other love.. and be a MTV VJ, okay maybe thats too much.. but oh well, we all have the right to dream at some point.

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my crazies :P

(The blogger is tipsy at the moment. Please forgive the typos and grammar booboos)
Ive been one busy beaver these past few uhm.. months? (Dear Blog, im uber soorry for the neglect)

So many times that I wanted to blog, but i just cant seem to find the topic.
Now i will write about not knowing what to write about! yay!

Everytime I look at a blank Word template, i often find myself trying to recall anything that is at some point, intresting to write about. With no luck, the ideas do pop into my head but it happens all at the same time. No concrete point, no focus whatsoever, just one big pile of mixed goo inside my head.This happens much too often.Argh!

See my dilemma, I want to write, but my thoughts are making me not too. (No, im not rationalizing!LOL)

Whenever I do come up with something to write about, thats when the craziest thing happen, i just suddenly become at lost for words. Aw, how i hate it when that happens. Its like coming up with the perfect plan, then when its time to execute..boom! you suddenly get mental blocked. Plan forfeited, efforts waisted.

Now you know.

Note to self:
Must.find.writing.inspiration.and.then.BLOGGGGGG!

Remember 2012

Guilty as charged, ive been neglecting my blog duties. haha. Not just coz I WANT to of course, believe it or not there is an absolutely VALID reason, but i wont tell :P (tease!)

Remembering the movie 2012, (PS I didnt like the movie that much) I cant help but feel a little scared about our dear world. A number of natural calamities already happened all over the world, and to think that were just in the 1st quarter of the year. Earthquakes in Haiti, Chile, and even some parts of North America, Typhoons in France and Spain, plus giant waves that hit a a Cruise Ship in the Mediterranean. What's next?

Coincidence that all these started happening after movie's release. For me, the movie is scarring, in a way that it left me thinking what if its true, what if we only got til 2012. It is a fictional flick but I for one, felt that there is a possibility. A possibility that armagedon is near. Adding the recent events makes me wonder even more. Morbid as it sounds, but I dunno. I'm just scared, uber scared in fact.

No need to raise paranoia though, im just saying LOL Like what Forrest Gump said "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you'll get". Let's just wait and see.

a buhbye to zero-nine

Nicole will start the NEW YEAR with a BLOG! este BANG pala..haha

2009.

Everyday was an exhilirating adventure. A period of self-doubt and self-discovery. Kudos to myself and everyone else for getting this far and surviving the year that passed. It wasn't what i thought it would be, but i am in no way dissapointed. God's plan for my 09 was well plotted and i know that it all happened for a reason.

I'll try to make this short because honestly i myself hate long blog posts :)

As silly as it might seem, i actually made a note of my supposed new year's resolution. As far as i can recall it was one long ass list, but.. don't ask me what they were because i dont remember. So much for putting an effort to the list. haha!

I remember saying to myself, "this is my year, this is our year". Being a college senior, the last year was a period of make or break. Passing, failing, and all these dilemmas. Above all that, the knife in everyone's chest was back then the upcoming NLE. Despite the fact that the NLE is on its way it surely did not stop us from having FUN. lol. Inom, gala at tambay (the triad of our existence).

the many milestones..

Best Debater --TDS Inc., A BPO company launched the "It's Academic! English Challenge" as part of their English Advocacy campaign. A series of challenges were given out, including tests for both written and spoken english. Winning the 1st leg, was already a remarkable feat but winning the 2nd leg was just astonishing. Coming from a provincial university it didnt even cross my mind that i had a shot at winning, i mean we were competing with some of the well-known universities in the metro odds were not that good. But..in the end i was awarded the Best Debater, and hell to the yeah proud to be a BULAKENYA!

Pinning --As a nursing student, this event marked our becoming, a significant prelude to our quest to become RN's. I still remember the procession, walking into a venue filled with friends, family and schoolmates, an overwhelming moment. I couldnt believe it at first, "Ito na ba talaga? Pinning ko na, pinning na namin". I was even guilty of shedding a few tears as the program went about. Memorable :)

Graduation--April 03, 2009. Sa wakas naka-graduate din! haha after 4 gruesome some years of college, degree holder na din! wee! Intensive review sessions started a few days after, way to spoil the graduation fever. ugh. But oh well, at least graduate na. haha!

Board Exams--2 days. It all came down to two days, damn. After months and months of preparation, our minds was already put to the test. We (with my bro and my bessy) checked in to a motel in Sta. Mesa(my 1st time to get inside a motel, bongga ang mirrors! haha). I didnt get to sleep much and woke up at like 4am, talk about my nerves in a verge of meltdown.In my opinion, the first day was tolerable. I was still smiling, "topnotcher na topnother pa din" words that i said to my brother after tests 1-2-3. I was giggling with excitement(to myself, i know i acted like a nutcase) after seeing a handful of familiar questions from our pre-board. IMCI and Peri-op nursing, oh thank you! Sir Riparip, I love you! That afternoon, we headed to the mall to chill, as my brother said "para marelax utak mo". We decide to watch a movie, guess what it is. Drag me to hell, some mind relaxation eh? Come night time, my brother decided to drug me just to fall asleep, he gave me 2 pills of benadryl. It helped i guess. . the 2nd day was dreaded, I couldnt even smile after that. My optimism faded into black. Fear started to rush in again.

TDS days --After our boards while the rest of our colleagues were retreating to the comforts of their homes, 6 of us went straight to Pasig, our home for the next 3 weeks. Exhausted from everything that transpired, all i wanted was to finally rest, but.. we didnt quite just yet. We spent the night talking about the exams, questions, answers, mishaps and everything else. Man, was it a long night! Fun,fun,fun :) The next morning was the big drag, we had to wake up early, not that we had that much of sleep, to get ready for our first day of training. 2 rides from our place to ortigas, plus traffic equals who knows how long the travel will take. Alas! we reached our building, rode the elevator and in to NY. Our trainer was a familiar face, our beloved Sir Mon who taught us soo much.. Drop it like its hot, Rica's and Rita's. Oh the memories. Tiangge hopping, balot and BBq, Trinoma, Coffee afternoons, Pulvoron! The English was way over in our heads i could've sworn that the saleslady almost cried. LOL Met a couple of new friends and had a once in a lifetime experience. Who would forget the thief who should not be named, and Kuya Jeff with all his predictions and stories. A challenge, 3 weeks away from home, we survived it and it was hella fun! Two of my valuable possesions were broken during our 3 week escapade: my N95, and my heart. Broke up with my then boyfriend :(

RN-- I passed the Phil. NLE. Nicole Lei Ma. Paz Socorro Perez Fonacier, RN. Probably the longest name on the list. I cant even put into words the joy i felt upon hearing the good news. I learned it from one of my good friends Lenz, who was the first to send me the text. Followed by my older brother's horrendous knocking on the door showing me a picture he took from the list of board passers. One of the happiest moments of my life! No words can equal the joy i felt :)

The many firsts..

*Driving a car, stick shift, and by myself! A few bumps here and there but hey every beginner went through that :)

*Total black out after drinking, the last thing i remembered was talking to my friend then wham! woke up with a massive headache and my clothes all changed. What the fudge! good thing it happened in my house!

*Trying to smoke.A HS buddy taught me how, and it wasnt a pleasant experience. Note: I only smoke when i drink and hang out with my college friends, well at that time it was like 2x a week.LOL

*Completing a Novena and a grand Church tour before the board exams :)

*First time I ate PARES. I didnt even know what it looked like, it was a big mystery to me. Good thing my bessy made me try it! yum,yum :)

*Riding a packed bus in the metro, and had to stand up during the whole course of the trip. Add traffic and voila, a perfect addition to an impending badtrip! haha

*and a lot more.. my memory is failing me.

Treasures..

my barkada-- Dencio, Alaine, Thet and Madz. My friends from start and hopefully til the end. 2009 has been rough for us, being busy with all other things, we dont see each other as much as we used to. We still find time for our bonding moments, and thats whats important. Love them so much.

Bes Ambie--my bestest best friend, pano ko ba idescribe to? haha! She was able to put up with me for years, haba ng pasensya nya infairness. . Thank you for a wonderful year beskoi!

KO friends-- mga kapanalig kay Kyla, thank you for the friendship.. kelan kaya ulit ako makasama sa inyo?

3A Grp 2 and 4C Grp 8,-- the crazy bundle of student nurses. Dami natin napagdaanan sa labas at loob ng hospital, miss u guys so much. Our drinking sessions, strolls, picture taking and tsismisang walang humpay. haha! :)

College barkada-- drinking buddies? bi's? haha loved every minute with my all of u. CofiCut at Orange, tara na! haha. Special mention to Camille, Mika, and Jose. Miss hanging out with them already :(

Cousins and relatives-- From both sides. My extended family. Looking forward to whats in stored for us this 2010 :) Are you smelling a reunion?? haha

Family--my brothers, EJ and RP.. add me to the group and there's gonna be a huge rumble. haha! my ma and pa, the ever so overprotective and supportive. haha Love them, No doubt :))

New Barkada-- Monday volleyballers/Friday Sessioners. ahaha. Accepted me when i first got here, being the newbie and all. To my BFf's Kevin, Mhay, and Rubi. Love u all :)

Ikaw-- oo ikaw nga!Whoever is reading this.. kasama ka din sa treasures ko :) *hugs

Lovelife..

Starting 2010, SINGLE!

Haay, dont even get me started. Way back when or i think even until now I've always been the one to admire the beauty around me. So yes! I have tons on crushes, LOL sometimes i try to make friends with them, successful at times but most of the time it doesnt really lead to anything worth keeping. I just love to keep my options open and Im still searching..

I thought I had him , i actually thought that my search was over. I fell in love, but.. in the end i fell out of it. For one, I am a pretty demanding, and he couldnt keep up with it.. I guess I grew tired of his many excuses. Dont wanna give out too many details. We eventually broke up and love lost! But trust me, I've moved on :)

Now that I'm single and ready to mingle..
Hey you! Whoever you are, i know you're out there. Im so tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here :))

The big change..

One big step I had to make in 09 was a more of a permanent step out of the life i lived for the past 19 years of my existence, moving to the US.

I found out about it during the first quarter of 09, and didnt think that it was for real or if the plan would even materialize. Well, obviously it did, and i've been staying here for almost 5 months already.

Leaving my friends and family behind was a big heartbreak. Walikng out from the life you were so used to was even harder. I spent my last days in Pinas with them, and tried to make the most out of it as possible. Happy memories :)

## The year that passed me by was filled of ups and downs, twists and turns. I enjoyed the adventure, and wouldnt trade it for anything. Im not perfect, there are countless times that i screwed up and countless times that i hurt someone's feelings. Im SORRY, for everything that I did wrong.

There are a thousand WHAT IF's but the hell with that,when the clock hits 12mn everything will be in reset. A new book to start, a new page to write.

My deepest gratitude to the Creator for giving me a wonderful 2009 and giving me the chance to

live up to 2010. God is good indeed.

Thank you to everyone who made my 2009 colorful :)
Looking forward to another memorable year.

With lots of love.

God speed :)

Freudian Slip

I had a dose of slips this week. Slip of the tongue, who doesn't?

When i was in college, in my not so distant past, I learned that there were actually medical terminologies used to decribe the common. Like Sex as Coitus, Sweating as to diaphoresis and as to the slip of the tongue is freudian slip. It was named after Sir Sigmund Freud, a famous Psychoanalyst. So much for the lecture...

One instance; Me and my cousin were on our way to my mom's work. A long drive.The subject of our conversation were psych patients and their antics. While we were at it, I was also texting my old mid.school classmate Mike and we were talking about more of the adult stuff (feeling adult ako eh. hahaha). Just imagine the words that would come out when my thoughts get mixed up with the two topics. Haha!

My cousin asked me about music and art therapy and how it helps patients, tracing back to all the countless hours of studying Psych Nursing, the answer was already in my head. When my mouth opened for the answers something else came out. With a knowledgeable tone I said " Do an Exotic Lap dance". My cousin was like "WTF are you talking about?".

There it was, a freudian slip. I was basically caught in two thoughts. Something from the sub/unconscious went out to be revealed in my conscious world.